Wonder

Ever wonder what it feels like to feel so empty in a world that is so full. To have your heart feel like it is ripped out of its chest. Each part is broken and torn with no way to mend. Feeling heavy from the heartache, not to mention the unfixable pain. Not wanting to regret your past. Trying everything in your possible power just to keep calm and think positive. Wondering if you will ever see the light. Rubbing your eyes endlessly just hoping to get some type of better focus. The mistakes that you made have now put you here. Did you do wrong? Or Right? What now may seem one way could soon seem another. The choices that we chose to make now heavily influence our near future, not yet knowing of what it will become. At the moment those choices seemed right, but do they now? Wanting to prove everyone wrong you do everything possible to make it seem like you are happy, though you are not. The challenges that come in the next few weeks will be harder than you can ever imagine. Keeping calm and staying strong is the main goal. Tears build up from within. Not wanting others to know, you push them away. Putting on a front is what you do best. Seemingly tough, but sadly weak you are no superhero. Thick skin literally, but cannot withstand figuratively. You think that keeping all of this to build up inside is better. Life is tough in this little bubble of yours, constantly shoving people out you think will make it easier on you.