Half Way Done

I leave tomorrow for home. I'm not even packed yet. I wish I could take a picture of my messy bedroom from my computer. I'm not that high tech, so I don't know how to do that. I have taken two of my finals so far. Tomorrow at 7:45 I take my psychology final and then I am going to stay to figure out my grade that I made on my Math final. After that my plan is to come back and pack my stuff up in my car and then go to turn in my history take home final at A&M. At this point I will have all of my stuff packed up and then I will leave straight from campus and head back home!!! I am so ready to blast my music in my tiny Kia Soul and sing at the top of my lungs with absolutely no worries in the world, accept for what I am going to watch on Netflix that night. I have begun to learn that things in life will always work out. Right now in this moment I feel as though things are working out. Now talk to me tomorrow, and it could be a different story. In my anatomy class that I was worried about failing, after finishing my final it turns out that in the class my average is now a 79.8! SEVENTY NINE POINT EIGHT! That meant that I pass the class with a B. I know that B's are considered "average", but I don't even care! I made a B in the class that I needed a good grade in! This means that I won't have to take the class again! SO HAPPY! I walked back into my dorm room screaming with joy. Another thing that seems to be working out is the fact that over the break I am suppose to be hanging out with my childhood best friend. We lost touch my senior year do to a series of extremely unfortunate events. I have learned that if things are really meant to be they will find their way. They always have and they always will. Life has a funny way of working out. I will have to keep you updated on how meeting back up with her goes. We are suppose to meet up at Panera on Thursday and catch up. I think that this will be good for the both of us and we will enjoy seeing each other again considering that we didn't end on a good note. I plan on telling her that I'm sorry for the way things ended and that I hope that we can move on as friends because I want her to know that I am always going to be there for her. Even though I know things may not fully be the same or we may never be fully friends again at least we know that we are both on good terms. I have moved on and I have forgiven. That's all that matters. Life is too short to hold on to things that won't matter a year from now or even a couple of days. Hopefully she feels the same way too. If not then I understand. In other news I am excited to go home and see my family. I miss my brother and sister. We already have fun holiday plans that we are hoping to experience with each other. Although it does't feel like winter or that Christmas is in 12 days. It's probably because it's not that cold and so far it has been extremely humid outside. Also ever since I have gotten older Christmas hasn't felt the same as when I am little. That goes with everything though. When you grow older all the joy and innocence is taken out of the things that you seemed to love so much as a kid. I should probably be studying for my final that's tomorrow, but it's almost 11 and I should probably sleep before I have to wake up early in the morning for my final. At this point sleep is more important than studying. This post is pretty random. Just like all of my other posts. I just like typing whatever flows from my brain. It's fun having some place to just let out all of my inner thoughts. I guess it's because I don't really have anyone on earth that I completely trust to tell everything to without feeling judged. I have people that I am extremely close to telling everything to. Someday I will have someone to tell everything to. I know it's somewhere in my future. I'm just not sure how near or far, but I guess that's what faith and trust in the good Lord is for. Sometimes I just wish I could see a little crystal ball and see what my future looks like. What things will change? What things will stay the same? I just want answers to these thoughts that are constantly looming in my head. Who will I end up with? When will I end up with them? Do I already know the person that will marry? Or have I never met them yet? I just need answers. I'm getting too deep for a post that was only originally talking about being half way done with finals. I'll keep you updated on how life is going post finals tomorrow. For now. . .


                                                                                                           Keep On Keepin On
                                                                                                                          - Katherine

FINALS 12/11/14

Finals are tomorrow. I'm so screwed. I don't even know what I am going to do tomorrow. I guess I am going to just "wing it". I am just ready for it to be Monday and get out of town. I am ready for the month off. My friend was talking to me the other day and she asked "When was the last time that we actually did what we wanted to do?" That's so true. When was the last time that I actually watched Netflix or read a book that I just wanted to read for fun? Not in a long time. I want to not actually have to worry about homework for a day or worry ---------- This is where I stopped (I still want to post this because this post was before finals had taken place). I found this in my drafts and I figured that I could post this anyway.

I'm alive, but I'm barely breathing.

This title depicts my life right now. I know I'm alive but I feel like I am barely breathing. When it comes to everything. College life, family, friends and everything else in-between that I have failed to mention. It feel so great to just type whatever pops into my brain with nothing but blasting music to distort my thoughts. I should do this more often. I am almost done with my first semester in college. COLLEGE. I just have to survive my finals. My grades are suffering big time. I don't even know where to begin with what has all gone on this semester, so I'm just going to list out a few things that occurred during this time.

• I have 3 crazy, awesome and fun roommates. We are all extremely different, but somehow we all work together 
• I  joined a Christian sorority. Who would of thought??!! It been pretty great. Now I know why so many closed doors can lead to one big wide open door 
• I went on my first official date. The first date was great . . . the second not so much. Needless to say he was asking for more. Lesson learned to never go on date with guys you find from tinder. After the second date I came home crying to my roommates, we all went to Walmart and I bought a shirt in the boys section. Life is now better. Moral of the story is boys are stupid. 
• I got drunk by myself on a Saturday night. At my home. Sorry Mom and Dad 
• My roommates and I made s'mores with a candle and we went searching for someone who had a lighter to light the candle. 
• I got my cartilage pierced. My Mom was upset that I didn't wait until Christmas to get it pierced. Oh well, she will get over it. 
• I missed my bus stop while riding the bus and I took the scenic route. I didn't realize that I had to press a button in order for the bus to stop at my bus stop. 
• I feel down the stairs while walking to the cafeteria where I live. The only person that saw was my roommate that still didn't take away from the pain that I felt after falling. 
• While walking to my first class at A&M my friend Danny and I found a baby kitten. We considered taking it to the first class, but we ended up having to put him or her back. I wanted to name it Midnight. The kitten was super cute and I would like to think someone found and gave it a happy home.
• I almost ran over a squirrel. That dang thing saw my car and ran right in front of me anyway. He had a death wish. I don't think I hit him. He must of had a bad day or something like that. 
• I was made an official active for the Christian sorority that I am in! I now go to prayer groups, chapter meetings, mixers and much more! I have met so many wonderful people through this organization! I am extremely blessed. 
• I dissected a cat with my lab group in Anatomy and Physiology. When I say "I" what I really mean is my lab group dissected a cat. I mostly watched and wrote for them. I named the kitty "Fluffy".
• I met so many people in all of the classes that I am taking. It's pretty great how comfortable I feel around the people that are in my classes. That is about to all change due to the fact that the semester is over and next semester it is back to ground zero again. 
• I got hit on the other day while I was on the bus to my 8 am class. This dude was very persistent and was asking so many questions. It was awkward because I thought the conversation was over, therefore I put my headphones back in and then he asked another question. He was nice, but if you talk to me before I have digested my coffee I am not very friendly. Plus, who whats to have a conversation on the bus? Everyone was listening to what we were saying.
• When I have gone back home I have hung out with Becca, Kirbie and Rita. I see Caitlin a lot in college and I have hung out with Sara some. I even met her friends. I also started texting Kim and catching up with her. Its amazing how much things change and how much things don't at the same time. 
• I went to my first couple of college football games. It's definitely an experience to say the least. I'm excited for baseball season though. 
• My roommates have a friend and his roommates stole a traffic cone. This led to us running up and down the hallway with a HUGE traffic cone over their body. It was like a scene straight out of Toy Story. 
• I learned that I miss by brother and sister terribly when I am gone, and that nobody will ever understand the crazy inside jokes that my family has. 

There is so much more to say, as of now this is all I can think of. Most days are good, but lets be honest have bad days, weeks and moments too. I'm so close to winter break all the Netflix I could ever watch and books I could ever read is just within my grasp. T - 5 days and counting, life has never felt any slower. My mind is just rambling with thoughts upon thoughts. If only my pudgy fingers could type fast enough. I love just typing out what has been going on with my life. Again, I'm alive, but I'm barely breathing. Dramatic, I know, but this is the way I feel on the inside. I'm just going through a lot right now, and I don't have that person up in College Station to tell me that things are going to be alright. I wish I had that. Maybe sometime soon. Like I said there are good days and then bad ones. I will get through this. I always do. I need to make blogging a daily thing.
       
 
                                                                                                      - Katherine