I'm alive, but I'm barely breathing.

This title depicts my life right now. I know I'm alive but I feel like I am barely breathing. When it comes to everything. College life, family, friends and everything else in-between that I have failed to mention. It feel so great to just type whatever pops into my brain with nothing but blasting music to distort my thoughts. I should do this more often. I am almost done with my first semester in college. COLLEGE. I just have to survive my finals. My grades are suffering big time. I don't even know where to begin with what has all gone on this semester, so I'm just going to list out a few things that occurred during this time.

• I have 3 crazy, awesome and fun roommates. We are all extremely different, but somehow we all work together 
• I  joined a Christian sorority. Who would of thought??!! It been pretty great. Now I know why so many closed doors can lead to one big wide open door 
• I went on my first official date. The first date was great . . . the second not so much. Needless to say he was asking for more. Lesson learned to never go on date with guys you find from tinder. After the second date I came home crying to my roommates, we all went to Walmart and I bought a shirt in the boys section. Life is now better. Moral of the story is boys are stupid. 
• I got drunk by myself on a Saturday night. At my home. Sorry Mom and Dad 
• My roommates and I made s'mores with a candle and we went searching for someone who had a lighter to light the candle. 
• I got my cartilage pierced. My Mom was upset that I didn't wait until Christmas to get it pierced. Oh well, she will get over it. 
• I missed my bus stop while riding the bus and I took the scenic route. I didn't realize that I had to press a button in order for the bus to stop at my bus stop. 
• I feel down the stairs while walking to the cafeteria where I live. The only person that saw was my roommate that still didn't take away from the pain that I felt after falling. 
• While walking to my first class at A&M my friend Danny and I found a baby kitten. We considered taking it to the first class, but we ended up having to put him or her back. I wanted to name it Midnight. The kitten was super cute and I would like to think someone found and gave it a happy home.
• I almost ran over a squirrel. That dang thing saw my car and ran right in front of me anyway. He had a death wish. I don't think I hit him. He must of had a bad day or something like that. 
• I was made an official active for the Christian sorority that I am in! I now go to prayer groups, chapter meetings, mixers and much more! I have met so many wonderful people through this organization! I am extremely blessed. 
• I dissected a cat with my lab group in Anatomy and Physiology. When I say "I" what I really mean is my lab group dissected a cat. I mostly watched and wrote for them. I named the kitty "Fluffy".
• I met so many people in all of the classes that I am taking. It's pretty great how comfortable I feel around the people that are in my classes. That is about to all change due to the fact that the semester is over and next semester it is back to ground zero again. 
• I got hit on the other day while I was on the bus to my 8 am class. This dude was very persistent and was asking so many questions. It was awkward because I thought the conversation was over, therefore I put my headphones back in and then he asked another question. He was nice, but if you talk to me before I have digested my coffee I am not very friendly. Plus, who whats to have a conversation on the bus? Everyone was listening to what we were saying.
• When I have gone back home I have hung out with Becca, Kirbie and Rita. I see Caitlin a lot in college and I have hung out with Sara some. I even met her friends. I also started texting Kim and catching up with her. Its amazing how much things change and how much things don't at the same time. 
• I went to my first couple of college football games. It's definitely an experience to say the least. I'm excited for baseball season though. 
• My roommates have a friend and his roommates stole a traffic cone. This led to us running up and down the hallway with a HUGE traffic cone over their body. It was like a scene straight out of Toy Story. 
• I learned that I miss by brother and sister terribly when I am gone, and that nobody will ever understand the crazy inside jokes that my family has. 

There is so much more to say, as of now this is all I can think of. Most days are good, but lets be honest have bad days, weeks and moments too. I'm so close to winter break all the Netflix I could ever watch and books I could ever read is just within my grasp. T - 5 days and counting, life has never felt any slower. My mind is just rambling with thoughts upon thoughts. If only my pudgy fingers could type fast enough. I love just typing out what has been going on with my life. Again, I'm alive, but I'm barely breathing. Dramatic, I know, but this is the way I feel on the inside. I'm just going through a lot right now, and I don't have that person up in College Station to tell me that things are going to be alright. I wish I had that. Maybe sometime soon. Like I said there are good days and then bad ones. I will get through this. I always do. I need to make blogging a daily thing.
       
 
                                                                                                      - Katherine