I leave tomorrow for home. I'm not even packed yet. I wish I could take a picture of my messy bedroom from my computer. I'm not that high tech, so I don't know how to do that. I have taken two of my finals so far. Tomorrow at 7:45 I take my psychology final and then I am going to stay to figure out my grade that I made on my Math final. After that my plan is to come back and pack my stuff up in my car and then go to turn in my history take home final at A&M. At this point I will have all of my stuff packed up and then I will leave straight from campus and head back home!!! I am so ready to blast my music in my tiny Kia Soul and sing at the top of my lungs with absolutely no worries in the world, accept for what I am going to watch on Netflix that night. I have begun to learn that things in life will always work out. Right now in this moment I feel as though things are working out. Now talk to me tomorrow, and it could be a different story. In my anatomy class that I was worried about failing, after finishing my final it turns out that in the class my average is now a 79.8! SEVENTY NINE POINT EIGHT! That meant that I pass the class with a B. I know that B's are considered "average", but I don't even care! I made a B in the class that I needed a good grade in! This means that I won't have to take the class again! SO HAPPY! I walked back into my dorm room screaming with joy. Another thing that seems to be working out is the fact that over the break I am suppose to be hanging out with my childhood best friend. We lost touch my senior year do to a series of extremely unfortunate events. I have learned that if things are really meant to be they will find their way. They always have and they always will. Life has a funny way of working out. I will have to keep you updated on how meeting back up with her goes. We are suppose to meet up at Panera on Thursday and catch up. I think that this will be good for the both of us and we will enjoy seeing each other again considering that we didn't end on a good note. I plan on telling her that I'm sorry for the way things ended and that I hope that we can move on as friends because I want her to know that I am always going to be there for her. Even though I know things may not fully be the same or we may never be fully friends again at least we know that we are both on good terms. I have moved on and I have forgiven. That's all that matters. Life is too short to hold on to things that won't matter a year from now or even a couple of days. Hopefully she feels the same way too. If not then I understand. In other news I am excited to go home and see my family. I miss my brother and sister. We already have fun holiday plans that we are hoping to experience with each other. Although it does't feel like winter or that Christmas is in 12 days. It's probably because it's not that cold and so far it has been extremely humid outside. Also ever since I have gotten older Christmas hasn't felt the same as when I am little. That goes with everything though. When you grow older all the joy and innocence is taken out of the things that you seemed to love so much as a kid. I should probably be studying for my final that's tomorrow, but it's almost 11 and I should probably sleep before I have to wake up early in the morning for my final. At this point sleep is more important than studying. This post is pretty random. Just like all of my other posts. I just like typing whatever flows from my brain. It's fun having some place to just let out all of my inner thoughts. I guess it's because I don't really have anyone on earth that I completely trust to tell everything to without feeling judged. I have people that I am extremely close to telling everything to. Someday I will have someone to tell everything to. I know it's somewhere in my future. I'm just not sure how near or far, but I guess that's what faith and trust in the good Lord is for. Sometimes I just wish I could see a little crystal ball and see what my future looks like. What things will change? What things will stay the same? I just want answers to these thoughts that are constantly looming in my head. Who will I end up with? When will I end up with them? Do I already know the person that will marry? Or have I never met them yet? I just need answers. I'm getting too deep for a post that was only originally talking about being half way done with finals. I'll keep you updated on how life is going post finals tomorrow. For now. . .
Keep On Keepin On
- Katherine
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